Wow, what a crazy roller coaster ride I've been on these last few months- and I can't believe that my whole world starting spinning out of control nearly 6 months ago. Slowly but surely, Jarrad and I are working together to pick up all the pieces. But I saw a tweet from a friend the other day and she said, "First the first time in a long time, I'm content." And I thought, am I content?
Well, I can't yet say that I'm completely content, but I can say that I'm almost there. One thing I'm grateful for is that I've always been very content in my relationship. No matter what happens, my happiness with my husband has remained the one constant and for that I'm so very thankful. What would I have done if he wasn't there to keep me going, I don't know the answer to that question.
So, 6 months ago, I find myself looking for the job that actually fits me and with that went my income, went every little penny gone and a crazy amount of stress, sadness and depression. Three months into it I find myself in the middle of a 90 day trial with an excellent agency. How exciting. During that time, we finally moved back to Raleigh and I can't tell you just how happy that made me. 90 days is over and it's official now.
So now, I'm back in Raleigh, back with my friends and I couldn't be happier. I can finally say, YES, I really do love my job and love where I live.
Next, the other stress Jarrad and I have faced is his schooling. With the GI Bill running out and him still needing classes to graduate, what are we going to do? And geez, we just need to get past school so we can really start our lives. Well, thankfully, my hubby took control and after several days and many hours of waiting in one person's office only to go wait in someone else's office, Jarrad was finally able to get the answers we've been looking for. We can say, Jarrad will be graduating in December- YAY!!! GI Bill gets us through the summer and with only 2 classes to graduate in the fall, he'll be free to work a full-time job. That's another huge step. How EXCITING!!! I CAN'T WAIT for him to graduate and I know he's so over this.
So yes, things are definitely coming together. And no, I'm not completely content yet but I have no reason to be unhappy. So what do I need to be content- unfortunately, money may not buy happiness, but it does relieve stress- I just want to pay bills and have a bit of play money without having to work and rework and rework my budget on a near daily basis in order to make that happen. So if I can find a side job as a waitress, I'll be completely content.
But, while I may not feel completely content, I can say that I thank God for what he has provided over these last few months:
~ Loving every moment I have with my husband
~ Back to living in Raleigh- you don't know how much I missed it
~ I have a job I love
~ We're slowly but surely working our way out of the hole I created
~ Jarrad will be graduating soon
Things are beginning to feel OK, and I will make it.
Life does go on, and while times are tough for us now, I think you'll continue to see the positive attitude coming out of me more and more over these next few months.
